It has come to my attention that the youths do not like Oz to play for them. I was wondering why cow mommy was explaining to me that she has asked the instrumentalist from children's liturgy to help the youths on the feast day item.

Then week after week, I sensed that the youths who sing the responsorial psalm specifically do not want Oz to play when they sing.

I don't take it personally. Well, if they don't want me to play, then they can play themselves, for each other, or have Big J play. Fine......I serve God, not the youths....I told myself.

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Nonetheless, I do realise that I need to examine myself as where did I go wrong and why this feeling of estrangement. Hmmm.....
If they feel stressed, it is because of a poor preparation. Maybe they sing wrongly and are afraid that I will correct them.
Hmmmm......
Anyway, I don't really care.
I do not need to feel that the youths need to appreciate me or whatever.
They can do whatever they want.
They can go up to the pulpit and sing all the wrong things for all I care.

I have made up my mind. If they don't want me to play, let them go and work out a solution for themselves. Leave me out of it.